am i helping?

ytd nite was juz fresking funny and scary....
on the way back to home from the workshop...
saw a man who had his car boot opened showing signs of a car incurring overheating,
so as a mechanic and a curious boy i went there to offer help and 2 check how is his car,
went down had a look chat and offered him some water since he is near the workshop,
then when i wanted to get into my car ....
i was panicking as the doors was lock and i can't find my keys anywhere on my body,
so u can guess it where it is.... its in the car... and i was like feeling to shout holy shit....
what should i do? i am outside and the phone keys n everything inside...
i was behaving really like a clown back then as i was trying to pull the the locked door to open as hard as i could although knowing the lock won't go off untill the handle is pulled from inside...
yet i tried and tried till i gave up.... but if it opened by brute i would be in worst trouble and i would consider myself to go for the world record ...

at the end the man borrowed me his phone to call my dad and it was freaking emberassing n funny as a person who wanted to help turn out to be the needed help... juz great...haihz....
then was sort of sounded by dad as he says the car has no spare keys for the car...
by then i though t i am going to get a lot of trouble....
so while waiting for help (my dad)... a motorcyclist drop by and asked what happened and the uncle turned out to be a mechanic and he had wire with him and he said he can try hook the lock up from outside....
and boy i was damn happy to see him....
at 1st we were struggling to open up an opening for the wire and it was achieved very fast but the most annoying part is the hooking part...
as the indian uncle first few attemps were so close yet the wire keep slipping off and it was all so close... (at the mean time i was holding on the screwdriver trying to keep the opening open till the man unlocked the door)
then he tooked out the wire and meant the shape of the hook for a while and by the 3rd attemp using the new hook... the door is unreleased and so do my happy soul... feeling relived and happy that the door was opened...

at the end i gave the indian uncle some money for helping me out ...
he refused at 1st but i insisted as he saved me from a lot of trouble edi...
i was lucky tat nite...
imagine tat if the indian uncle never showed up, who knows what will happen to me...
also i voluteranly get the man 2 bottles of water before i go home...
so everyone, before helping try to see are u able to help and dun leave ur keys in the car if u hv auto locking alarm fixed onto your car... nitez

update......after a looong break... 1:p

it seems that i had deserted this blog for ages edi....
and it is true... i hardly get myself a chance to online as i am getting lazier to get myself out from my home just to online...
i might be too tired of working and had no more energy to go out... (doesn't soud like me being a unactive person rite?)
or i might just be too bored of getting online aimlessly...
hopping from pages of webpage without target of search, get into msn but seems of dunno what to chat or no one 2 chat or maybe i am online when late night.......
i am now feeling really left out of this world... damn sad and alone...
everyday home and work...
lost contact with most of the people as i am the kind who hardly take the initiative to be the one asking people out...(sort of weird and not expecting this kind of situation from me? but it is me....)
long time never went out and hang out wif frens...(really miss the old school life... although wif the pressure of teacher and exams.... still i love it when i am with friends)
i really hope to join in the study life that most of you all doing yet slightly affraid of it as many said that Uni life very very tough.... so rojak my thoughts..

enough of this sad atmosphere...
let you know sth cheerful... i am getting fatter( from what my mom told me though i dun think there is any difference)
thanks to the cury chicken that i am taking in daily...YUP... daily.... and it is for months edi.... so it is logical for me to be fat...hahaha... but what can i do? the nearest pfod stall is the mamak opposite the workshop.. the rest of the food choices especially the chinese ones are within DRIVING distance and it is hard to get a car park when i came back from my lunch if i went off to eat far
as the mamak business is damn freaking good where at luch time the parking is always fully ocuppied and once you went out of the space you have to wait... till the lunch time to be over to get a place...
so the lazy me resulted into taking nasi kandar often...( quite impressed by myself as i never realised that i can stand eating the same food for so long....i am getting nuts i think for taking so long... or no, curried to be precise...lol)

urgh...i really need to get myself to get out of home and get some enterteiment edi...
planning to watch spider man 3... hehehe.... going to take up daniel's advise to call people up.. so be prepared to get my call hahaha....
sth really akward is happening 2 me too... i hardly played the PS2 nor most gaming console for long time edi and it really weird for a gamer like me not to touch it... ama i changing? or should i say am i getting older? i dunno...
tired edi lar... finger oso not really used to typing edi... so long never typed... better rest... bye... and i wishes good luck to all the people who i know, reading or not reading this... in whatever you all doing ....ALL THe BEST especially to those having the A-lvl & STPM!

wat a great guy....

juz heard from the radio about a guy's proposal 2wards a gurl....
it was so damn romantic and nice....love the idea...
tat fella actually shot a video clip b4 his proposal and made her girlfriend's friends 2 ask her out 4 a movie,
then when the gurl went in, while waiting 4 the movie 2 start, the commercials start rolling, the was a clip showing him saying tat "i noe u waited tis 4 a long time and please look back"
when the girl turned, the guy was in a tux wif flowers and ring and the gurl said "i do"
the whole audience went wild cheering for them and after all that they continued watching movie where they will never forget.

i do wish i can do sth tat nice 4 my special 1....but still not found yet...
hv an idea of make sth big at 2011 september 11th 11:11:11.....
2 tell her tat she is the oni 1（唯一）... but it would be to early 4 a proposal rite ? as i would be like oni 23 lar...
may take tis day and time 2 cheer that "her" up...or i may spent tat day alone in the future who noes?better dun think bout it and juz let it be till tat days come...
or will i able 2 live till tat day? who noes?hahaha

am i the still the old me? doubt so...

Luck... sth i need....

Dragons Are Enjoying Great Luck This New Year according to most of the "fengshui master" am i right as i don't know what to use to address them….but is it real? I doubt so as I am now enjoying mostly ill luck in my time.


Today, while I finished my breakfast at the mamak just opposite the workshop, I came back and asked my colleague about why he didn’t go and take his breakfast and he told me that he lost he appetite when he checked out the mamak and there was a argument of a customer as the customer found the cockroach antenna (I don’t know what’s the name of it) in the bihun and that’s why he lost his appetite. Then, I asked him he saw this before or after I went the mamak and he replied me before. I was like why didn’t you tell me earlier before I went mamak? As now I had taken a whole plate of bihun there without knowing the existence of the extra “ingredient”….T.T…..

Last 2 days I just had an accident due to my carelessness and never looked behind while reversing my car and “bang”…and I go oh shit I am going to be in deep trouble, as I was out without my wallet nor hand phone as I was just going to the bookshop near my housing area. At the end I ended up giving him my contact and the workshop address to let my dad settle with him tomorrow since I have no idea of what to do. It went ok till I told my parents I had an accident. They didn’t get very angry as I expected but still they nagged me through saying why I didn’t take their advice and drive carefully and all the driving lesson advice we normally hear. I felt bad and agreed with what they said as I am really careless and I think I shouldn’t drive as I only will cause trouble again for my parents when I am driving, its just the matter of time I get myself into trouble.

But from the accident I also learnt a thing as the bumper of the Wira I bumped was cracked although it was a small bump while there was nothing on my car. Sad to say, Malaysian car quality sucks.

Not only that, I got my finger injured by hitting it by a hammer. It happened while I was repairing a car and I accidentally hit it and it was really painful. Now, I still can slightly feel the pain on my finger. Ouch!

So many things happened but I don’t think I should blame it to the luck that I endure all this, I should blame my carelessness to all the accident I had. It all can be prevented if I were more careful with all the things I do. I really have to change and be more careful always and not to be repeating all the mistake I had done. I really have to change the clumsiness that I have and not taking it as an excuse for me to make a mistake as all this mistake is very troubling to my loved ones and friends. I don’t want to trouble people so I have to change.

pig pig pig...

try visit this... it is very funny.... sth i stole 2 ... haha but really should be shared...
i dunno how 2 put the youtube ere so just go to tis link...
sth bout pig year one....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sBDA_4DKrbM

so enjoy....

same valentine

the same valentine spent by me again tis year doing nth...
juz great? when will be my time 2 celebrate it with the special someone?
god knows...? but was feeling sad for a girl ....from the radio...
the valentine gift she recieved this year is something she would never forget...
it was the request from the husband to divorce...walau!!!
imagine u were her... wat feeling u will hv 2 go through at the special day... and 2 recall it at the special day of the year, every year... it is really toturing....hope she would let it go and had another new life...

but i am now getting more and more anxious and worried ler...
as people nowadays don't seems 2 take love as a serious thing edi (from wat i see)
it is common for people 2 constantly change partners and giving up on the relationship they had build on before... it is sad...
people tend to give up easily compared to the old times...now are breaking off due to small matters and saying that they are different people which cannot stay together.....
but people last times stayed together and learnt 2 tolerate and from the mistakes they did but ppl now normally resolute to breaking up instead of fixing it as it is so called 2 prevent each other experince greater pain as the relationship get longer...(but did they tried 2 fix it?)

also people don't appreciate the one they have ... and constantly seeking for a better one in life...
i read bout a mail long time ago but it is really meaningful one... sth bout cornfield 1...
hv 2 go search at the pile of e mail... post it next time...
but the story really made me wonder is everyone really greedy? including me...as i am always doubting for myself whether should i go for and wonder does she suit me the best or i may meet a better person which may come after her...? or even should i grab on her as she maybe the 1 suit me the best?
i think i am thinking 2 much and restricting myself from expressing myself...
i felt so freaking weak and felt shamed by my own cowardness...haihz...
back 2 my question juz now is everyone now changed and blinded wif the urge 2 seek the better one...therefore they give up so easily? or is it the nature of human 2 seek new things and give up on the old 1(espcially guys...including me ler...haha)

but is tis the influence of the media, society, peer pressure?
"as everyone is doing it, whats wrong with me doing it" attitude....
so people have no consideration 2 give up so easily compared 2 back then when divorce is not common... yes people there is people who really suffered in their marriage but was it a majority?
it is juz a minority i think... people do not give up so easily and persisted and lastly overcomed many problem as people nowadays sees as impossible to overcome...

love is actually sth very lovely , beautiful and pure but are distorted by the materialistic life we lived in and by ourselves... making love into a very ugly thing where there is people not even dare to step in to get involve.. but tis is not the love of general love but the relationship kind of love ler... as people always argue wif me there is still family love and others but i am now talking the "coupling love" {is there such word?lol!!}
but am i one of them? i really hoped not but i think i am... mayb ...mayb not...
so blur.... dunno ler... (who knows...)
anyway so late edi... better get going or else dad scold again...
nitez...
hope all the ppl who r coupling would appreciate what they have now and not 2 let it go easily...
those who r not... like me... good luck and hope you will find ur partner soon...

Visit at SIBU....!!!

wah...so late oni i post tis blog....
thanks to my streamyx which can't work....
anyway....
first thing first....very very very thank you to Daniel and his family as I and Ching Cheang like bother them for 5 days and had eat and stay for free there....hehehe...
also very thank you for you all (Ee Gee, Christine, Janice, Johnny?) who accompanied and brought us around Sibu...

Anyway...the trip was started at 4:30 in the morning as we have 2 be at the airport by 7:30
and i was freaking out when i realised my IC is left at the wrkshop and we ahad no time to pickit up... so mom asked me 2 bring the pasport instead of the IC and i was really doubting whether this method will work...
i was damn worried as if i screwed it up CC would like came from Muar for nothing... and i will be
wasting 600 for the airplane ticket...
luckily everything went well and we met a couple from sibu and guided us noobs which is the 1st time taking plane wifout parents.

And as we landed at sibu...both of us were like wat are we going 2 visit later as we saw most thing on the land is only trees and both of us remebered wat my mom said..."wats the point going to sibu which is 'sam ba' = jungle". as we arrived there the 1st thing we saw was the huge house with the land of a football field! its really gigantic...and all the houses there are huge compared 2 PJ houses as the terrace house there is like the semiD ere edi...
daniel's house is also huge and really tidy where you can see it shiningly clean...
also he had a farm at the back of his house wif fruits tat i had 4 dessert at his home...
daniels room are as expected filled wif books but its his brothers....
they have a study room wif a real cool rules and regulation notice by his dad...
talking bout his parents aunty is a very warm person and seems like a person who will never get angry and his father is quite a technical person which is very up to date wif us teenagers as he listen and watches the latest movie and musics including jay chou....his sis and bro i can't tell as both of them are real shy n like haven't said a word wif us strangers ?
as for ee gee father, he is a very funny person and a little forceful persin as he said i and ching cheang are not allowed 2 leave sibu if we didn't finish the food he belanja us...
he gee and his 2 sis doesn't look alike, juz like daniel and his brother and sis...
all three hv diff faces but all inherited parens facial characteritics

And at the 1st day we like went through almost every shopping complex there as the complex there are not really big but the common thing there is tat the complexes there sells pirated DVD openly there an it is not one but many of it selling openly....it is like the heaven of pirated discs...
and it is damn cheap there...4 for 20 oni...
after tat we like went to eat the the kong pia there...and ried a lot of stuff u can't find here....
there is kampua mee- the white version of wanton mee but wif another kind of taste also come in dark sause and chili sauce flavour , also the wanton there is named "bian niu"fu chow dialect.
chao zhu mian- a noodle which is like fried first then cook in starch... taste a bit like loh mee which is burnt
santan drink-santan mix wif water and drink
"millan" vegie-a vegie i never seen here very crunchy and quite nice
yam kuih-normally the 1 i eat is salty but this is the sweet 1 which i first time tried
umai -which is damn sour...the native sushi, where it is the raw fish which is diped in the vineger and chili
"ga lan"- a black colour fruit which is olive . now only i know ablut existence of olive in m'sia and realised that it is not a flower but a fruit. In Sibu it is cooked with soy sauce and sugar and is eaten wif rice and it is very common there. It taste like mustard and most younger generation nowadays can't take it as the taste is really weird.
oso the soy sauce there is thick 1 but taste like the thin one... u noe wat i meant...?
"kwong pia"- a bread which is like a snack for us 2 chewand it is a very healthy snack. i bought 30 of it and at the end can't finish it...=.=!!!....
longan there is real different one as their outer shelll is green in colour and it is spikey instead of the normal brown smooth skin. but it taste nicer as it is no chemical taste in it like the one we normally eat as it is plucked fresh from the jungle.


we went 2 see the visit most of the ppl's house at there not visited ee gee's and janice's(next time must go... hahaha)
christine room is huge and she has a real furry hamster and it is huge compared 2 the 1 we normally see. i think christine gave it special and good food so it get untill so big. oso at her home we found her pic when she was a kid and was very enjoying looking at it as there is many cute and funny pic inside.

lets talk bout the city....
it is a city of a blend of old and modern building and it is really harmony...
u can still see the real antique kind of rumah papan, and next 2 it is a a simen buiding and semi-d houses,
there is oso a huge pagoda but didn't get 2 go in 2 see....
they oso hv a very big field forgot the name but it is really "zhen han"
u can see the shops wif the old plastic sign board that u can hardly see here,
the road there is damn rojak and funny one as u can like find divider in the middle of the road for no purpose at all,
the road design is much complicated than KL's and it can be very headaching if u dun hv a guide 2 lead u on the road, u will be dying giving the direction as the name there is like in chinese and it is ranging from 3 to 12 words for a road and it is not easy 2 say it as it is translation of the malay word,
oso u can see a very cute thing on the junction of the road as there will be a big stop word at the junction instead of the berhenti sign...
also the town is actually more 4 chinese at the sign board main language is BC and sub language is BM...
oso u can hardly find the mousqe there instead churches are very common there...the reverse of here...
but really 1 2 try visit the stone mountain tat ee gee said as it is said it is haunted and it is very spooky, but it is closed down few years ago,(daniel, ee gee, next time i go there we go sneak in there ok? joking ler...hahaha i oso scare ler...)
oso we went 2 visit the biggest structure there, some bridge which is built lately,
we were like trying 2 see the view from the bridge carefully as it costs us 6 bucks juz 2 cross it... and there is nothing special bout the river under it... it is just a huge bridge and we had the sattisfaction of "we were on the largest structure in sibu!! wow!!??"

the schedule we have there is mainly like eat, sight seeing the city within the car, play computer at daniel's home and watched movie at home, not 2 mentioned we sang karaoke in his house and i sucked ... hahaha as always....
not 2 forget the PSP i get 2 play there ....hehehe ( i am a game freak)...

it is a great experince there and the whole trip was juz nice....
and the plane ride home was another intresting 1 as we met an engineer there and i learnt alot from him as he solve many of my curiosity bout the plane,
oso from him we found out tat the pilot of tat flight is actually first time flying....
both of us were shocked but it is true as the landing and taking off of the plane the is very shaky and rough, but luckily we oni knew it at the end of the flight....
imagine if you found out the pilot is new at the beginning of the flight, u will like scared 2 death throughout the flight and can't even sit still...
and at the end we took the bus 2 sentral n splitted there as we hv diffrent place 2 return...
on the bus i came 2 know a dentisit who serve the army and he told me a lot bout his work... and he actually oso a anime fan...!!! one piece and bleach lover...hahaha

at home mom was shocked thati actually like go sibu 2 buy groceries as the souvinier i bought is longan, millan vegie, and the kwong pia,oso the DVD....
i was shocked tat she said tat there vegie are available ere and it is very common ere.... i was like wat the!!?? is it real.... i was like trying 2 show her the vegie and she said tat i was damn silly 2 get the vegie so far from there while she can get it at the market...
haihz,.... i am so blur....
anyway it is very late and the blog is damn long so i better stop...
ciao guys....
really hope 2 go there again.... like the enviroment there as it is not as tense as here...
Nitez...

finally.... an update....

wah....its seems ages ago from my last post...
so really have alot of things to say as ihad many experince that i want to share and tell...
but i think i am currently short of the energy which i need 2 blog
as i had so many work load 4 the past 2 weeks,
thanks 2 the new maid who came late i had to take her place...
after a tiring day working at workshop during the day, back at night i am doing this and thatm
plus tuition classes wif my brotheres as their schooling started,
so i am really dead tired,
and really appreciate the hardwork the maids worked on as the work they do daily is not little but a lot, as my family is a big family, the clothes washing alone is a very tiring job,
and that is one of the jobs they have 2 do daily...

oso i had crashed a car while reversing my car,
luckily volvo was tough enough had nth but a few scratches at the bumper, while the wira which were parked there went kemik by 1 part, and got scolding from both parents...haihz...what a careless person i am.

other than this finally made a small decision on my further studies...
should be going 2 be mechatronics engineering,
place... not sure...as still applying...but hopefully UTAR or NTU,
but 1 thing 4 sure is i am not going 4 the early year intake but the mid year 1 as constrains of family ....
but really 1 2 reenter the studying life as i really enjoyed the campus life...
talking bout this, really misses every1 from SYUC, especially ausmaties....
miss u all, but i sort of lost contact wif most ppl edi... but really hope 2 see everybody again,
also tis is the reason y i really looking 4ward 2 the trip 2 sibu...
can't wait 2 c u guys...lol...also a break from ny tiring scedhule here...
better get going edi.... mom should be nagging by now as i haven't go back 2 take dinner and its almost 10, also i am sort of tired edi
so bye bye...nites
really hope 2 get a gathering 2 meet everyone........

something i stole.... but really nice.....

this is sth i stole from my frens blog
but it is very maningful so i can't stop myself from sharing it wif everyone....
so sorry christine 4 grabbing it wifout permission...

喜欢一个人,是喜欢和他在一起,因他给的快乐;离开后,是会想念,想着想着就会笑,然后继续你平静的生活,并期待与他再次重逢...
爱一个人,是想和他在一起,因千肠挂肚的舍不得;离开后,也是想念,想着想着会叹气问说:"不知他现在过得怎样!",希望他早日回到你身边...

你喜欢的人,在你眼中是天使,无所不能,总会满足你任性的要求...
你爱的人,在你眼中是孩子,傻傻的,不期望他做什么,但一味地纵容他那些让人哭笑不得的举动...

你喜欢的人伤害了你,你会生气,并一定要他哄你,骗你,逗你笑,你才原谅他...
你爱的人伤害了你,你不会生气,只会独自伤心,偶尔忧伤笑着...

你可以同时喜欢很多人,想和他们在一起,但也许多年后你才发现,原来爱的人,只有他一个,怎么都不会变,你以为把他忘了,其实你只是忙得没空想起而已...

喜欢是和他讨论问题时争得面红耳赤,各不相让,像个刺猬一样从不认输,但早已默默地佩服他的才华...
爱是希望他和自己步调一致,心灵相通,无论他的哪一句话,都可左右自己的喜怒哀乐,在他面前的自己是从不设防的...

喜欢是在楼道里碰上他,愉快地和他打招呼,并简单寒暄几句,擦肩而过时像看见明媚阳光,心情无端好起来...
爱是在楼道里碰上他,脸上装出一副毫不在乎的表情,但在擦肩而过时细心感受身边颤动的空气,于是忍不住回头望一眼...

喜欢是看到他和另一个女孩一起,心里有一点点疼,但很快就重新扬起笑脸...
爱是一场输不起的游戏,付出全部之后,留下的可能只是一道刻在心底的伤痕...
等等等...呵呵~!

喜欢是浅浅的爱,爱是深深的喜欢,深深的喜欢不一定会换来深深的喜欢,也可能只是换来浅浅的爱罢了...

love the last two line which she written which is true were we can't take it as a game...and what u give may get u sth not the equal of what u gave as return...
so try 2 appreciate if u r in one and not to be so down even if u r turned down or had ur heart shaterred...

long lost "twin" brother ......found...!?

ytd.... juz found out that i actually had a twin bro.....lol....
we hv quite similar situation but he is much better than me in person where he is a veri bright fella which can be the future nobel prize winner or sth great... i can guarantee.....
having quite simmilar intrest in games.... devil may cry n a few more.......lol....
n science where he hv great intrest n knowledge where mine mostly intrest....haihz...."chan qui"
oso he and i went through quite simillar exp....
sharing the same pain .... so we can say that we noe each other....(really?)
dunno ler.... but i do appreciate 2 hv a great fren like him ....
very reliable and oso can b funny 2.....enjoy spending wif him....
mayb i should b a gay as he suggested....!?.... nar... never.... i am not that kind neither do he....lol....
sos hope 2 see u soon.......dun 4get me ler.....

today ar... damn tiring ar....
finish work ay 11...thanks 2 a stupid car....
thought finish fixing the parts into the car after many effort where the time at then was 9 edi....
but i came out that the car couldn't start where we dunno why it cannot start as we never touch the relevant part....
then we were stuck wif the car.... tearing the car parts off 2 seek 4 the problem.....haihz...
after many trials and effort... finally..... its the small piece of box which controls the sparks into the engine where we actually change it with the new part where the owner brought....
it turn out that the part he brought was worst than the 1 he tried 2 change....
so at the end we use back the old part n all this took plenty of effort n time.... y so unlucky one...
oso than 2 this car i on9 so late i dun really see many ppl that i 1 2 chat wif....speciallly my twin bro...lol...as ytd had a great conversation wif him n still feel that its not enough....
n oso i came 2 a realise that i seems 2 addicted 2 msn edi.... die lor....
i am now like a "3 gu 6 po" cannot stop edi... die.... but it is oso because that this is the best way 2 chat wif frens tat i can't see edi as Ausmat end edi.....T.T
talking bout Ausmat... hv 2 start praying edi as result coming out at 27th....great christmas present...rite?
so lets hope that everyone who taken ausmat get good result....
including me....
talking bout christmas how would i celebrate christmas this year...? juz like always...not celebrating nstay at home facing tv ?
no idea.... lets wait 4 its arrival.... nitez.......

Feeling of seperation.... haihz....now which 1 i should choose ?

looong time didn't post anything edi...
i am feeling a bit akward 4 me 2 blog.... felt so unfamilliar and strange...weird...
altough its oni a few days but i started 2 miss all the campus life and the days we spent together...
all the days we had together now are only able to be kept n stored in our memories,
giving us smiles at our face when we recall it....
sounds stupid rite...?
now currently helping at dads workshop learning alot of things, but hands are getting dirty(hands on experince...)
so many things wanted 2 say... but dunno what 2 say .....
i think i am going nutz edi... mind is thinking so many things...
where i should go, what i should study, should i study...?
haihz..........headache.......

i am now quite lost....+ quite emo as quite many thing had happened....
quite "fan" lar..... better 2 let work 2 keep my mind off these...
dunno lar.... also i came to realise that not everyting may go as planned or thought...
one must hv some other plan 2 back things up...
or else u may regret like me....lol...
ppl around me sees 2 hv very clear path 2 walk but i am now still walking around the bushes searching.... doubting at every step i made....
dunno lar....
anyway felt quite tired edi as worked 1 whole day...
really hope that can get 2 gather wif ausmaties soon...
also looking 4ward 4 the trip 2 sibu.... yay.....!!!!

what a day.....wif the orphans....

today we went to the orphans house at klang and it was plain nice although slightly tired...
before this we were planning to hv a visit to rumah hope where i went b4 but the plan was changed as the home were left wif 2 kids....
when i listened 2 this news... the 1st thing in my mind was holy shit what 2 do....
calling like crazy and the end finally we r able to settle down at the srimarithan home....phiew....what a relief...
and also a coincidence, the other group, ee lin's also was hving trouble wif the original house they planned and end up 2 work under the same home today...
the 1st thing we reach there is that the god gave a grand entrance by cleaning us and the whole area with the heavy downpour... and all of us are soaked...(my feet still freezing,as i am still wearing the wet shoes...)
at 1st when we reach tere the 1st thing that came that i saw was the 3 babies....(yeoh....its damn cute and charming lar...) u wil feel like go and grab one of them n not 2 let go...
but its oso quite sad to say that the babies r quite pity as they were left at such early age, luckily they still hv a great home at there....
the kids there were wonderful and very sporting 2....but some of the elder 1 r really shy...
let me recall thekids name...
anthony.....the 1 which loook like the leader the head of the kids, eldest i think...
daniel..... a guy which is a little shy and still can play...
william .....the breakdancer!!!!WoW n he is like 5 years old leh...!!!!
david....future dota experts....
benjamin...the 1 who hides himself n dun 1 2 show but was forced by me to join in...."grin...lol"
john... the dictionary of jokes.....
michelle,joanna,peggy,sarah,unice"i dunno how 2 spell"....the cute small gurls...
but sarah was a little akwardas she was new n dunno how 2 blend in...
angel...just as her name the priceless small baby angel which r very very addorable....
christopher....the naughty one, running ere n there...
samuel.... cute kid which was loved by colin especially....
and the rest i really can't reacall....sori kids...but still i luv u all and spent a great afternoon wif u all although it is just a few hours....
and there was 1 accident that happened before anything started... angel fell down from the sofa and bumped her samll head...poor her...
also there is a kid where only kien lin can carry oni as other ppl try 2 cary the baby, he will cry...kien lin=natural father...lol!!!
when we started the 1st game the game was full of laughther and joy...
u guys should look at the expression of eelin and michelle when they are called out 4 the punishment...priceless...hahaha....
and then kean keet punishment is oso quite fun oso... if u 1 2 noe what happened...those who dunno please ask him... lol
anyway... while the 1st game was in process the chrismas tree were assembleed by a few guys at the back but i think none of us had experince setting up one so we were like going 4 trial n error and finally stil come up wif a tree.... yeah!!!
then the statue dance game which followed was in a chaos and at the end we played london bridge rojak version...
then i escaped from the home 2 bring lunch 4 the kids and came to realise that i sweated a lot and was freezing while waiting 4 the pizzas....
ya there is still a scene where richard was like a tree meant 4 the kids 2 climb where 3 ckids were hanging on his arm swinging...
after eating... i was hving quite some quality time with the "elder gang" of the kids n were sharring all the jokes and all of us was laughing like mad....
somemore they all still 1 2 pantang pantang when they trying 2 tell me as there is actually a few small kids beside us and the picture of that time was really funny....then richard,the bomb, came in which make the laughing stocks even more...
then we clean up everything and had the most important...group picture!!!yeepie...!!! and i get to take angel wif me in the photo...lucky...but still i doubt that i will look nice as there is many hands pressing on my head when the picture was taken...lol...dunno how many horns i will b hving?
then we all cleaned up and chiao but some of the kids dun 1 2 let us go n 1 us 2 stay back lol...
also they asked for our emails... hope that i can chat wif them soon...
anyway...while waiting 4 my mom 2 fetch us they were talking dota nonstop making me 2 feel akward n dunno what 2 do lar....haihz..."guai zai what 2 do"...syok sendiri...
really 1 2 put the pics into this blog n let u guys see lar...better get it from kelvin n teck hwa...
anyway...we then went back 2 campus and went 4 the boring m'sian studies
but sumthing seems 2 happened to sze ling when coming back... who noes?
hv 2 go edi mom called so bb.....

Aura or should i say colours?

Your Aura is Red

You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage. Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works! The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon

What Color Is Your Aura?

love or like?

how do u feel and think about love & like...?
how do u diffrentate between this 2 similliar items?
what do u call love?
what do u call like?
what is the difference?
how can u tell u juz feel comfy and like to be wif sum1 and not in love?
and how do u noe u fell in love with him/her...?
can u tell? juz 1 2 noe what u all think... so ploease leave a comment about ur thoughts and share it... thanks...

mixed and twisted feeling....hard to describe verbally...

so long didn't blog edi as the exam was forcing me not to blog but study study study
finally i felt relieved that i finished the exam,
but worried in the other hand as i felt that i don't really done much for TEE but fooled around,
also feeling very down as this is the 1st time i had quarrel *sort of very serious*
as i never tried the situation where she try not to talk to me and neglect me ...
and this is continuing for 1 week edi and nothing seems to get better only worst...
all this starts just because of the lost of a small camera memory card where her pic that she took from china which were inside of it were lost...
how much stupider and dumb i can be...?
my mom said i am the worst kind of people the least responssible, useless, not to be trusted man is me but the ppl outside said that i am total reverse where i am helpful and trusted? am i?
since then she dun really spoken to me and sort of blamming everything i do, where everything i do is wrong and none of it seems to be right making me feeling very depressed and not feeling to do anything as i had the idea that i will screw everything again if i go and did sth..
i really dunno how to handle this...
who is true? is my frens trying to comfort me with what they compimented about me or they meant it?
i felt really lost and really lonely and confused...
now where TEE finished and decision of further studies hv 2 be make quick was another burden 4 me but i was so effected i doubt in myself weteher i should go on and study of juz give up?
all this is making doubting a bout myself wether i am capable? or am i juz a useless piece of shit?
now i sort of feeeling worst that i finished TEE...sort of stupid rite..?
the holiday i am hving now is not so comfy and i really hope that it end soon and i am able to see all the frens and 4et about all this or else i will be nuts sooner or later(am i too 'kua zhang")
felt better after spitting all this out at ere...dun worry bout me as i juz 1 2 get sth to take out all this unpleasent feeling....

really hope all this end soon and back to a normal, simple life.......(feeling really childish now....hahaha!!!)

ass hurts...

wah... my buttock is damn sore as i had 2 bring my youngest brother on bicycle
going up and down the hill of "bukit cahaya" or sth like that and my yongest bro is not light...!
but u i think "bukit celaka" suits it better as so unlucky many thing happen 4 juz a short 3 hour ride there...
my 2nd bro was flung off the bike as he tried 2 corner at a high speed after coming down a slope,
and my 3rd bro was having both his black as his bike's chain kept falling off,
and the last brother tripped down on the road as he was walking,
and the worst was my mom,
trying to avoid and not to crash my 5th bro who stop suddenly when going down a slope,
she fell down the bike with her face 1st!!!*ouch*
i was damn worried and checked on her a.s.a.p,
luckily she was not injured badly but juz a small scratch on the nose and arms plus a patch of ateries are visible on her forehead but not bleeding... not to mention that she had injuries at her knee where i can't really see as she was wearing long jeans...
i went to get help and asked my mom to take a ride on the forest rangers car but she turned it down when the youngest brother insisted not to take the ride with her and wanted to stay and with me...
i was very mad at him at 1st as he made mom not able to take the ride and she had to ride with us back 2 the entrance... but i then forgot as the worries surpasses my anger where i worried bout mom injuries...
however she was fine and cycled back 2 the entrance at the end...
what a cycling experince which there is not much fun but many scary and shocking incident...
and i was very impressed by my mom that she still tolerate with my bro although she was injured... this should be what we call the power of motherly love...

also after the riding i saw my frens blog which were talking about a people characteristic... and i felt that i had simmilarities wif that guy and it maybe me who noes?
however, i was having an oddly felling where i was strip naked as many of it i think it is true and it also make me think am i really like that?
it really made me think...even if it wasn't me but it really taught me sth... thanks...
better get my sore butt off this chair and back 2 study... ciao...!

What a way 2 spend the holiday....doing nothing at all....

hey hey.... broke my promise and came on9,
but i juz 1 2 make a short entry before i go back to study.....(tired)
juz finished babaysitting brothers as parent went off to vacation at china...
but i actually have done except getting them food and make sure they dun fight...
the rest was the job of the powerful master...~PS2~...hahaha
and i was juz sleeping and t.v.ing the whole 5 days without touching anything on studies...
i am going 2 suffer for the coming TEE...i noe....but who cam i blame? me...!
now i am rushing like mad cow edi....
but at the 5 days i oso did sth meaningful...but doesn't really succeded back then but at least i accomplished it today...felt so nice to see her being happy...

also i finish the puzzle that wu jun gave me...but 6 were MISSING!!!! T.T....
all the hardwork....haihz... better get going lor....
back 2 studies....frens calling edi...

cute puppies....

guess what....?
my home took in two dogs 1 month ago.... and now both of them are pregnant and gave birth to 7 cute puppies....
although we dunno who the 'father' is.... (where both of them can go out from the house through the gates as we let them to move freely in n out to let them to make 'discharge' outside the home...)
my brother were very excited and suggest that each of us take 1 to take care.... and i think it is kind of nuts 2 hv 9 dogs at home....? what is the further action going to be taken ..? no idea but it is really nice to see the cute puppies... but we were not able totouch them yet as their mom is guarding them from us as the puppies eyes are not even open yet....
so i can only wait patiently 4 the puppies 2 grow old enough then oni can play wif them....
juz can't wait to get my hands on 1 of them as i always felt so nice 2 look at the puppies pic in the email and now i hv my chance to play wif it.... juz can't wait.... better get prepared as the drama is going to be show soon...will tell u all how was it later but after that i doubt i will hv any entry for quite a time as TEE is coming... hv 2 study....

oh ya .... i really enjoyed the badminton game yesterday guys,
(although i played badly...)thanks 4 inviting me 2 the game yesterday.....
had a great day.....

Year End......The time for seperation and 2 make choices......

end of the year is coming and this also means hv 2 be seperated again from frens,
and face the judgement from the exam papers, but what hurt me worst is 2 be seperated from frens, i really hate this feeling and ausmat 2 be so short...
juz as i got closer and noe all the frens a bit better we have 2 leave......
hate it when i come 2 think of it...
the feeling of emptiness and lonliness will be covering me from top to bottom as i am not with frens...
and i dunno why i feel so helpless and restless....
i miss the life of staying together for 6 years when i was in primary and hving close feeling wif each other...
also i feel so lost as i hv 2 make choices of life and planning for further studies which i obviously had not done any...
i am so lost... i want guidance but from who.... i am the 1 who should be the 1 who know myself the best and what suits me the best
but i really dunno and hv no idea of what i should do... i really hate myself to be so doubtful not daring to take a further step and to face the unknowns....(what a coward...)
i felt so useless....
what is my dream? an engineener? inventor? am i able to do it? or am i going to just continue the family business... i am so "fan" ar!!!!!
the oni thing i should do now is to just focus on studies 4 the coming TEE and forget bout this temporarily and think about it after TEE......but will it be too late?
sooner or later i am going to be mad i tell u...(hahaha....Muahahaha.....)
in short......... i hate end of the year but i do appreciate it as i grow everytime i hv 2 face the challanges, pain, sweet memories, everything the end of the year bring to me....
i really will miss all ausmat march intakes and i really didn't want to leave so soon....
i really enjoy ausmat not because of the studies but u all....