same valentine

the same valentine spent by me again tis year doing nth...
juz great? when will be my time 2 celebrate it with the special someone?
god knows...? but was feeling sad for a girl ....from the radio...
the valentine gift she recieved this year is something she would never forget...
it was the request from the husband to divorce...walau!!!
imagine u were her... wat feeling u will hv 2 go through at the special day... and 2 recall it at the special day of the year, every year... it is really toturing....hope she would let it go and had another new life...

but i am now getting more and more anxious and worried ler...
as people nowadays don't seems 2 take love as a serious thing edi (from wat i see)
it is common for people 2 constantly change partners and giving up on the relationship they had build on before... it is sad...
people tend to give up easily compared to the old times...now are breaking off due to small matters and saying that they are different people which cannot stay together.....
but people last times stayed together and learnt 2 tolerate and from the mistakes they did but ppl now normally resolute to breaking up instead of fixing it as it is so called 2 prevent each other experince greater pain as the relationship get longer...(but did they tried 2 fix it?)

also people don't appreciate the one they have ... and constantly seeking for a better one in life...
i read bout a mail long time ago but it is really meaningful one... sth bout cornfield 1...
hv 2 go search at the pile of e mail... post it next time...
but the story really made me wonder is everyone really greedy? including me...as i am always doubting for myself whether should i go for and wonder does she suit me the best or i may meet a better person which may come after her...? or even should i grab on her as she maybe the 1 suit me the best?
i think i am thinking 2 much and restricting myself from expressing myself...
i felt so freaking weak and felt shamed by my own cowardness...haihz...
back 2 my question juz now is everyone now changed and blinded wif the urge 2 seek the better one...therefore they give up so easily? or is it the nature of human 2 seek new things and give up on the old 1(espcially guys...including me ler...haha)

but is tis the influence of the media, society, peer pressure?
"as everyone is doing it, whats wrong with me doing it" attitude....
so people have no consideration 2 give up so easily compared 2 back then when divorce is not common... yes people there is people who really suffered in their marriage but was it a majority?
it is juz a minority i think... people do not give up so easily and persisted and lastly overcomed many problem as people nowadays sees as impossible to overcome...

love is actually sth very lovely , beautiful and pure but are distorted by the materialistic life we lived in and by ourselves... making love into a very ugly thing where there is people not even dare to step in to get involve.. but tis is not the love of general love but the relationship kind of love ler... as people always argue wif me there is still family love and others but i am now talking the "coupling love" {is there such word?lol!!}
but am i one of them? i really hoped not but i think i am... mayb ...mayb not...
so blur.... dunno ler... (who knows...)
anyway so late edi... better get going or else dad scold again...
nitez...
hope all the ppl who r coupling would appreciate what they have now and not 2 let it go easily...
those who r not... like me... good luck and hope you will find ur partner soon...