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Monday, September 27, 2010

after son long... the post that came in is a freaking random one.... *WARNING: reading this may waste 15 min of ur life*

sometimes i wonder,
am i really that selfless?
am i?
sometimes i really wonder am i suppose to be more selfish to get whatever i wished?
as i think i normally choose to give up on things that i might fight for and grab the chance,
instead,
i always think that things will always end up better without me in the picture,
as other always are better in role to do so than me
in everything i do,
i really hardly find the confidence....
hahaha the irony huh?

really is the reality check list of the life nowadays forces us to be sefish if we want to have life in our desired way?
or shall we just actually to just give in to whatever the situation provides and not to move forward....
i know i am really spouting nonsense here,
yes, even i also hv no idea what i am talking here,
its juz a random thought.

sometimes i even think i am very the selfish,
if u know me.........
really i dunno what i am ?
i am kinda lost already.....
or am i?
hahaha... seriously, this entry sound like a nut cracked dude giving a lecture....

i still remember a few lines that friends said,
"shoot first, appologise later"
as life is too short for regrets....*am i able to live life like this? not being over powered by rationality?*

and also this one
"u hv to be very strong to do something very wrong"
yup, if u r trying to do something that are socially or morally wrong,
u hv 2 be firm and strong with ur faith and hold on to it till the very end...
but i dun think i am as strong as i thought..........
i hv doubts in myself....

somehow, i always look so carefree....
but infact i actually hv gazillions of thoughts running wild in the head
however all of them are juz thoughts.
strong dreamer, never an action taker (sucks huh?)


lol....

playing with fire?
i dunno whether i am able to bear the pain... ?
or am i able to?
......................................................................................seriously sesat...........................................