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Friday, October 13, 2006

Year End......The time for seperation and 2 make choices......

end of the year is coming and this also means hv 2 be seperated again from frens,
and face the judgement from the exam papers, but what hurt me worst is 2 be seperated from frens, i really hate this feeling and ausmat 2 be so short...
juz as i got closer and noe all the frens a bit better we have 2 leave......
hate it when i come 2 think of it...
the feeling of emptiness and lonliness will be covering me from top to bottom as i am not with frens...
and i dunno why i feel so helpless and restless....
i miss the life of staying together for 6 years when i was in primary and hving close feeling wif each other...
also i feel so lost as i hv 2 make choices of life and planning for further studies which i obviously had not done any...
i am so lost... i want guidance but from who.... i am the 1 who should be the 1 who know myself the best and what suits me the best
but i really dunno and hv no idea of what i should do... i really hate myself to be so doubtful not daring to take a further step and to face the unknowns....(what a coward...)
i felt so useless....
what is my dream? an engineener? inventor? am i able to do it? or am i going to just continue the family business... i am so "fan" ar!!!!!
the oni thing i should do now is to just focus on studies 4 the coming TEE and forget bout this temporarily and think about it after TEE......but will it be too late?
sooner or later i am going to be mad i tell u...(hahaha....Muahahaha.....)
in short......... i hate end of the year but i do appreciate it as i grow everytime i hv 2 face the challanges, pain, sweet memories, everything the end of the year bring to me....
i really will miss all ausmat march intakes and i really didn't want to leave so soon....
i really enjoy ausmat not because of the studies but u all....

1 comment:

cDi said...

Like what they say, "there's no such thing as no separations". We will still have to face it no matter when or where we are. Just cherish them in your heart okay? Even if they had forgotten you, you will still remember them. =) as for your choices, well....it's still your choice. Can't help much XD.