finally.... an update....

wah....its seems ages ago from my last post...
so really have alot of things to say as ihad many experince that i want to share and tell...
but i think i am currently short of the energy which i need 2 blog
as i had so many work load 4 the past 2 weeks,
thanks 2 the new maid who came late i had to take her place...
after a tiring day working at workshop during the day, back at night i am doing this and thatm
plus tuition classes wif my brotheres as their schooling started,
so i am really dead tired,
and really appreciate the hardwork the maids worked on as the work they do daily is not little but a lot, as my family is a big family, the clothes washing alone is a very tiring job,
and that is one of the jobs they have 2 do daily...

oso i had crashed a car while reversing my car,
luckily volvo was tough enough had nth but a few scratches at the bumper, while the wira which were parked there went kemik by 1 part, and got scolding from both parents...haihz...what a careless person i am.

other than this finally made a small decision on my further studies...
should be going 2 be mechatronics engineering,
place... not sure...as still applying...but hopefully UTAR or NTU,
but 1 thing 4 sure is i am not going 4 the early year intake but the mid year 1 as constrains of family ....
but really 1 2 reenter the studying life as i really enjoyed the campus life...
talking bout this, really misses every1 from SYUC, especially ausmaties....
miss u all, but i sort of lost contact wif most ppl edi... but really hope 2 see everybody again,
also tis is the reason y i really looking 4ward 2 the trip 2 sibu...
can't wait 2 c u guys...lol...also a break from ny tiring scedhule here...
better get going edi.... mom should be nagging by now as i haven't go back 2 take dinner and its almost 10, also i am sort of tired edi
so bye bye...nites
really hope 2 get a gathering 2 meet everyone........

something i stole.... but really nice.....

this is sth i stole from my frens blog
but it is very maningful so i can't stop myself from sharing it wif everyone....
so sorry christine 4 grabbing it wifout permission...

喜欢一个人,是喜欢和他在一起,因他给的快乐;离开后,是会想念,想着想着就会笑,然后继续你平静的生活,并期待与他再次重逢...
爱一个人,是想和他在一起,因千肠挂肚的舍不得;离开后,也是想念,想着想着会叹气问说:"不知他现在过得怎样!",希望他早日回到你身边...

你喜欢的人,在你眼中是天使,无所不能,总会满足你任性的要求...
你爱的人,在你眼中是孩子,傻傻的,不期望他做什么,但一味地纵容他那些让人哭笑不得的举动...

你喜欢的人伤害了你,你会生气,并一定要他哄你,骗你,逗你笑,你才原谅他...
你爱的人伤害了你,你不会生气,只会独自伤心,偶尔忧伤笑着...

你可以同时喜欢很多人,想和他们在一起,但也许多年后你才发现,原来爱的人,只有他一个,怎么都不会变,你以为把他忘了,其实你只是忙得没空想起而已...

喜欢是和他讨论问题时争得面红耳赤,各不相让,像个刺猬一样从不认输,但早已默默地佩服他的才华...
爱是希望他和自己步调一致,心灵相通,无论他的哪一句话,都可左右自己的喜怒哀乐,在他面前的自己是从不设防的...

喜欢是在楼道里碰上他,愉快地和他打招呼,并简单寒暄几句,擦肩而过时像看见明媚阳光,心情无端好起来...
爱是在楼道里碰上他,脸上装出一副毫不在乎的表情,但在擦肩而过时细心感受身边颤动的空气,于是忍不住回头望一眼...

喜欢是看到他和另一个女孩一起,心里有一点点疼,但很快就重新扬起笑脸...
爱是一场输不起的游戏,付出全部之后,留下的可能只是一道刻在心底的伤痕...
等等等...呵呵~!

喜欢是浅浅的爱,爱是深深的喜欢,深深的喜欢不一定会换来深深的喜欢,也可能只是换来浅浅的爱罢了...

love the last two line which she written which is true were we can't take it as a game...and what u give may get u sth not the equal of what u gave as return...
so try 2 appreciate if u r in one and not to be so down even if u r turned down or had ur heart shaterred...

long lost "twin" brother ......found...!?

ytd.... juz found out that i actually had a twin bro.....lol....
we hv quite similar situation but he is much better than me in person where he is a veri bright fella which can be the future nobel prize winner or sth great... i can guarantee.....
having quite simmilar intrest in games.... devil may cry n a few more.......lol....
n science where he hv great intrest n knowledge where mine mostly intrest....haihz...."chan qui"
oso he and i went through quite simillar exp....
sharing the same pain .... so we can say that we noe each other....(really?)
dunno ler.... but i do appreciate 2 hv a great fren like him ....
very reliable and oso can b funny 2.....enjoy spending wif him....
mayb i should b a gay as he suggested....!?.... nar... never.... i am not that kind neither do he....lol....
sos hope 2 see u soon.......dun 4get me ler.....

today ar... damn tiring ar....
finish work ay 11...thanks 2 a stupid car....
thought finish fixing the parts into the car after many effort where the time at then was 9 edi....
but i came out that the car couldn't start where we dunno why it cannot start as we never touch the relevant part....
then we were stuck wif the car.... tearing the car parts off 2 seek 4 the problem.....haihz...
after many trials and effort... finally..... its the small piece of box which controls the sparks into the engine where we actually change it with the new part where the owner brought....
it turn out that the part he brought was worst than the 1 he tried 2 change....
so at the end we use back the old part n all this took plenty of effort n time.... y so unlucky one...
oso than 2 this car i on9 so late i dun really see many ppl that i 1 2 chat wif....speciallly my twin bro...lol...as ytd had a great conversation wif him n still feel that its not enough....
n oso i came 2 a realise that i seems 2 addicted 2 msn edi.... die lor....
i am now like a "3 gu 6 po" cannot stop edi... die.... but it is oso because that this is the best way 2 chat wif frens tat i can't see edi as Ausmat end edi.....T.T
talking bout Ausmat... hv 2 start praying edi as result coming out at 27th....great christmas present...rite?
so lets hope that everyone who taken ausmat get good result....
including me....
talking bout christmas how would i celebrate christmas this year...? juz like always...not celebrating nstay at home facing tv ?
no idea.... lets wait 4 its arrival.... nitez.......

Feeling of seperation.... haihz....now which 1 i should choose ?

looong time didn't post anything edi...
i am feeling a bit akward 4 me 2 blog.... felt so unfamilliar and strange...weird...
altough its oni a few days but i started 2 miss all the campus life and the days we spent together...
all the days we had together now are only able to be kept n stored in our memories,
giving us smiles at our face when we recall it....
sounds stupid rite...?
now currently helping at dads workshop learning alot of things, but hands are getting dirty(hands on experince...)
so many things wanted 2 say... but dunno what 2 say .....
i think i am going nutz edi... mind is thinking so many things...
where i should go, what i should study, should i study...?
haihz..........headache.......

i am now quite lost....+ quite emo as quite many thing had happened....
quite "fan" lar..... better 2 let work 2 keep my mind off these...
dunno lar.... also i came to realise that not everyting may go as planned or thought...
one must hv some other plan 2 back things up...
or else u may regret like me....lol...
ppl around me sees 2 hv very clear path 2 walk but i am now still walking around the bushes searching.... doubting at every step i made....
dunno lar....
anyway felt quite tired edi as worked 1 whole day...
really hope that can get 2 gather wif ausmaties soon...
also looking 4ward 4 the trip 2 sibu.... yay.....!!!!

what a day.....wif the orphans....

today we went to the orphans house at klang and it was plain nice although slightly tired...
before this we were planning to hv a visit to rumah hope where i went b4 but the plan was changed as the home were left wif 2 kids....
when i listened 2 this news... the 1st thing in my mind was holy shit what 2 do....
calling like crazy and the end finally we r able to settle down at the srimarithan home....phiew....what a relief...
and also a coincidence, the other group, ee lin's also was hving trouble wif the original house they planned and end up 2 work under the same home today...
the 1st thing we reach there is that the god gave a grand entrance by cleaning us and the whole area with the heavy downpour... and all of us are soaked...(my feet still freezing,as i am still wearing the wet shoes...)
at 1st when we reach tere the 1st thing that came that i saw was the 3 babies....(yeoh....its damn cute and charming lar...) u wil feel like go and grab one of them n not 2 let go...
but its oso quite sad to say that the babies r quite pity as they were left at such early age, luckily they still hv a great home at there....
the kids there were wonderful and very sporting 2....but some of the elder 1 r really shy...
let me recall thekids name...
anthony.....the 1 which loook like the leader the head of the kids, eldest i think...
daniel..... a guy which is a little shy and still can play...
william .....the breakdancer!!!!WoW n he is like 5 years old leh...!!!!
david....future dota experts....
benjamin...the 1 who hides himself n dun 1 2 show but was forced by me to join in...."grin...lol"
john... the dictionary of jokes.....
michelle,joanna,peggy,sarah,unice"i dunno how 2 spell"....the cute small gurls...
but sarah was a little akwardas she was new n dunno how 2 blend in...
angel...just as her name the priceless small baby angel which r very very addorable....
christopher....the naughty one, running ere n there...
samuel.... cute kid which was loved by colin especially....
and the rest i really can't reacall....sori kids...but still i luv u all and spent a great afternoon wif u all although it is just a few hours....
and there was 1 accident that happened before anything started... angel fell down from the sofa and bumped her samll head...poor her...
also there is a kid where only kien lin can carry oni as other ppl try 2 cary the baby, he will cry...kien lin=natural father...lol!!!
when we started the 1st game the game was full of laughther and joy...
u guys should look at the expression of eelin and michelle when they are called out 4 the punishment...priceless...hahaha....
and then kean keet punishment is oso quite fun oso... if u 1 2 noe what happened...those who dunno please ask him... lol
anyway... while the 1st game was in process the chrismas tree were assembleed by a few guys at the back but i think none of us had experince setting up one so we were like going 4 trial n error and finally stil come up wif a tree.... yeah!!!
then the statue dance game which followed was in a chaos and at the end we played london bridge rojak version...
then i escaped from the home 2 bring lunch 4 the kids and came to realise that i sweated a lot and was freezing while waiting 4 the pizzas....
ya there is still a scene where richard was like a tree meant 4 the kids 2 climb where 3 ckids were hanging on his arm swinging...
after eating... i was hving quite some quality time with the "elder gang" of the kids n were sharring all the jokes and all of us was laughing like mad....
somemore they all still 1 2 pantang pantang when they trying 2 tell me as there is actually a few small kids beside us and the picture of that time was really funny....then richard,the bomb, came in which make the laughing stocks even more...
then we clean up everything and had the most important...group picture!!!yeepie...!!! and i get to take angel wif me in the photo...lucky...but still i doubt that i will look nice as there is many hands pressing on my head when the picture was taken...lol...dunno how many horns i will b hving?
then we all cleaned up and chiao but some of the kids dun 1 2 let us go n 1 us 2 stay back lol...
also they asked for our emails... hope that i can chat wif them soon...
anyway...while waiting 4 my mom 2 fetch us they were talking dota nonstop making me 2 feel akward n dunno what 2 do lar....haihz..."guai zai what 2 do"...syok sendiri...
really 1 2 put the pics into this blog n let u guys see lar...better get it from kelvin n teck hwa...
anyway...we then went back 2 campus and went 4 the boring m'sian studies
but sumthing seems 2 happened to sze ling when coming back... who noes?
hv 2 go edi mom called so bb.....

Aura or should i say colours?

Your Aura is Red

You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage. Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works! The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon

What Color Is Your Aura?

love or like?

how do u feel and think about love & like...?
how do u diffrentate between this 2 similliar items?
what do u call love?
what do u call like?
what is the difference?
how can u tell u juz feel comfy and like to be wif sum1 and not in love?
and how do u noe u fell in love with him/her...?
can u tell? juz 1 2 noe what u all think... so ploease leave a comment about ur thoughts and share it... thanks...

mixed and twisted feeling....hard to describe verbally...

so long didn't blog edi as the exam was forcing me not to blog but study study study
finally i felt relieved that i finished the exam,
but worried in the other hand as i felt that i don't really done much for TEE but fooled around,
also feeling very down as this is the 1st time i had quarrel *sort of very serious*
as i never tried the situation where she try not to talk to me and neglect me ...
and this is continuing for 1 week edi and nothing seems to get better only worst...
all this starts just because of the lost of a small camera memory card where her pic that she took from china which were inside of it were lost...
how much stupider and dumb i can be...?
my mom said i am the worst kind of people the least responssible, useless, not to be trusted man is me but the ppl outside said that i am total reverse where i am helpful and trusted? am i?
since then she dun really spoken to me and sort of blamming everything i do, where everything i do is wrong and none of it seems to be right making me feeling very depressed and not feeling to do anything as i had the idea that i will screw everything again if i go and did sth..
i really dunno how to handle this...
who is true? is my frens trying to comfort me with what they compimented about me or they meant it?
i felt really lost and really lonely and confused...
now where TEE finished and decision of further studies hv 2 be make quick was another burden 4 me but i was so effected i doubt in myself weteher i should go on and study of juz give up?
all this is making doubting a bout myself wether i am capable? or am i juz a useless piece of shit?
now i sort of feeeling worst that i finished TEE...sort of stupid rite..?
the holiday i am hving now is not so comfy and i really hope that it end soon and i am able to see all the frens and 4et about all this or else i will be nuts sooner or later(am i too 'kua zhang")
felt better after spitting all this out at ere...dun worry bout me as i juz 1 2 get sth to take out all this unpleasent feeling....

really hope all this end soon and back to a normal, simple life.......(feeling really childish now....hahaha!!!)

ass hurts...

wah... my buttock is damn sore as i had 2 bring my youngest brother on bicycle
going up and down the hill of "bukit cahaya" or sth like that and my yongest bro is not light...!
but u i think "bukit celaka" suits it better as so unlucky many thing happen 4 juz a short 3 hour ride there...
my 2nd bro was flung off the bike as he tried 2 corner at a high speed after coming down a slope,
and my 3rd bro was having both his black as his bike's chain kept falling off,
and the last brother tripped down on the road as he was walking,
and the worst was my mom,
trying to avoid and not to crash my 5th bro who stop suddenly when going down a slope,
she fell down the bike with her face 1st!!!*ouch*
i was damn worried and checked on her a.s.a.p,
luckily she was not injured badly but juz a small scratch on the nose and arms plus a patch of ateries are visible on her forehead but not bleeding... not to mention that she had injuries at her knee where i can't really see as she was wearing long jeans...
i went to get help and asked my mom to take a ride on the forest rangers car but she turned it down when the youngest brother insisted not to take the ride with her and wanted to stay and with me...
i was very mad at him at 1st as he made mom not able to take the ride and she had to ride with us back 2 the entrance... but i then forgot as the worries surpasses my anger where i worried bout mom injuries...
however she was fine and cycled back 2 the entrance at the end...
what a cycling experince which there is not much fun but many scary and shocking incident...
and i was very impressed by my mom that she still tolerate with my bro although she was injured... this should be what we call the power of motherly love...

also after the riding i saw my frens blog which were talking about a people characteristic... and i felt that i had simmilarities wif that guy and it maybe me who noes?
however, i was having an oddly felling where i was strip naked as many of it i think it is true and it also make me think am i really like that?
it really made me think...even if it wasn't me but it really taught me sth... thanks...
better get my sore butt off this chair and back 2 study... ciao...!

What a way 2 spend the holiday....doing nothing at all....

hey hey.... broke my promise and came on9,
but i juz 1 2 make a short entry before i go back to study.....(tired)
juz finished babaysitting brothers as parent went off to vacation at china...
but i actually have done except getting them food and make sure they dun fight...
the rest was the job of the powerful master...~PS2~...hahaha
and i was juz sleeping and t.v.ing the whole 5 days without touching anything on studies...
i am going 2 suffer for the coming TEE...i noe....but who cam i blame? me...!
now i am rushing like mad cow edi....
but at the 5 days i oso did sth meaningful...but doesn't really succeded back then but at least i accomplished it today...felt so nice to see her being happy...

also i finish the puzzle that wu jun gave me...but 6 were MISSING!!!! T.T....
all the hardwork....haihz... better get going lor....
back 2 studies....frens calling edi...

cute puppies....

guess what....?
my home took in two dogs 1 month ago.... and now both of them are pregnant and gave birth to 7 cute puppies....
although we dunno who the 'father' is.... (where both of them can go out from the house through the gates as we let them to move freely in n out to let them to make 'discharge' outside the home...)
my brother were very excited and suggest that each of us take 1 to take care.... and i think it is kind of nuts 2 hv 9 dogs at home....? what is the further action going to be taken ..? no idea but it is really nice to see the cute puppies... but we were not able totouch them yet as their mom is guarding them from us as the puppies eyes are not even open yet....
so i can only wait patiently 4 the puppies 2 grow old enough then oni can play wif them....
juz can't wait to get my hands on 1 of them as i always felt so nice 2 look at the puppies pic in the email and now i hv my chance to play wif it.... juz can't wait.... better get prepared as the drama is going to be show soon...will tell u all how was it later but after that i doubt i will hv any entry for quite a time as TEE is coming... hv 2 study....

oh ya .... i really enjoyed the badminton game yesterday guys,
(although i played badly...)thanks 4 inviting me 2 the game yesterday.....
had a great day.....

Year End......The time for seperation and 2 make choices......

end of the year is coming and this also means hv 2 be seperated again from frens,
and face the judgement from the exam papers, but what hurt me worst is 2 be seperated from frens, i really hate this feeling and ausmat 2 be so short...
juz as i got closer and noe all the frens a bit better we have 2 leave......
hate it when i come 2 think of it...
the feeling of emptiness and lonliness will be covering me from top to bottom as i am not with frens...
and i dunno why i feel so helpless and restless....
i miss the life of staying together for 6 years when i was in primary and hving close feeling wif each other...
also i feel so lost as i hv 2 make choices of life and planning for further studies which i obviously had not done any...
i am so lost... i want guidance but from who.... i am the 1 who should be the 1 who know myself the best and what suits me the best
but i really dunno and hv no idea of what i should do... i really hate myself to be so doubtful not daring to take a further step and to face the unknowns....(what a coward...)
i felt so useless....
what is my dream? an engineener? inventor? am i able to do it? or am i going to just continue the family business... i am so "fan" ar!!!!!
the oni thing i should do now is to just focus on studies 4 the coming TEE and forget bout this temporarily and think about it after TEE......but will it be too late?
sooner or later i am going to be mad i tell u...(hahaha....Muahahaha.....)
in short......... i hate end of the year but i do appreciate it as i grow everytime i hv 2 face the challanges, pain, sweet memories, everything the end of the year bring to me....
i really will miss all ausmat march intakes and i really didn't want to leave so soon....
i really enjoy ausmat not because of the studies but u all....

tired tired tired.....

walau...tired of blogging leh.... 3rd entry in 1 day........
nevermind must learn from gary.....
this few days was the continuos day of working 4 me as from mooncake festival night continued with gary promo tour and now cousin sis wedding...
i had to help out to move all the tables and chair in my cousin's wed as soon as i arrived for the party
my uncle ordered me as soon he sees me... haihz...
that day i never reall had the chance to eat properly as i was moving ere and there and didn't hv the chance 2 warm up my seat....
also on the next day i was the photographer for them really really tiring leh....
i am now relly worn out and now currently i have somemore dance practices 2 attend as this coming saturday is the big day...
walau...should i take a break...? yup i think so...
but i really appreciate that i filled my holiday time to the max i think...(although not on
studies.... where this reminds me of coming TEE and Mock result coming....haihz)
i really don't want to finish this course lar as i haven't really made any decision on my further studies and do not want 2 be seperated wif my frens now which i juz get to know them more...
really "mm seh tak " lar....
ireally hope that time would slow down and let us to have more time together as i really enjoy the campus life....
but i know i hv 2 be rational as time wait 4 no one and i better start planning my future or i may regret 1 day...
who knows....?
juz hope that everyone i noe will not forget me at and also i wouldn't forget u guys at the future...
really tired edi so this should be it ...so see u guys and hope we can always keep in touch...

A day with celebrity.....nice...

on saturday.... i skipped martial arts and dance class juz to be the assistant 4 Gary Yap(the 8TV VJ)
that day when i 1st met him oni one thing....TALL.....
but he is a really friendly nice sweet guy...
we were rushing down 2 JB at the early morning with wu jun and another 2 reporter(Yong Zhi And Kiwi) (or sophia by now?) we were the feqw lucky ones to get Gary to be our Ahmad(driver)hahaha....
nice guy gary as i mentioned juz now was very considerate that he bought us drinks before we started the journey not to mention he belanja us breakfast 2......
the journey was started with acoompanies of the noise of the wind which caused by the damaged rubber of gary's new car...
we tried 2 fixed it with tissue and we had succedded
at the journey down 2 JB i was the talkative 1 and shared the cold jokes that sze ling and zi hang taught me and we laughed like mad...
we also talk bout the ghost stories experinces we heard b4...
that day was quite exciting and new to me not to mention blur also as i hv no idea what i hv 2 do 2 be an assistance...
i oni help out carry things and help to drive off unnessecary ppl away from gary...
i had enjoyed great food from the neway karaoke gathering.... it was juz nice....
also had to sell his CD near the stage as the distributour didn't distribute his album at JB....
and i was impresseed by him as he had a fan club of his own after such a short time...
anyway met even more atrtist from singapore which is his fens who came to support him...
we were juz like a short 3 hours at JB and rushed back 2 KL 4 another performance he is in...
at the journey back, the noise caused by the wind was gone but there was another source of noise( my snores...so embarrasing) they told me after that i was awake.....
very impressed of his hardworking attitude and came to realise it is not easy to be an artist...
he went JB juz for a karaoke gathering and a short stage performance and he had 2 rush back edi 4 another...as he finished everything.... he was really tired and sore untill u can see his eyes turn red leh....
i felt pity for him and still on the early of next morning he is going to hv a drama series 2 shoot...
i was saluting 2 him as he was really really "pok" for his carrer and published his own album all by himself...
despite this... lets talk bad bout him leh...(evil grin...)
i realised ar that gary had 2 practice more on his dance step... not to say i am talking bad bout him... juz i think he need 2 learn more to strenghthen his abillity in his carreer...
now after socialised wif him for a whole day... i came to rea;ised that artisit is not what i had imagined and was a much tougher than i thought.
know 2 new frens that day and still finding their mail add at home...(dunno where i left it..=.=!!!)
he also gave me an album of his and a poster wif his signature leh...!(actually this is what i insisted as he actually want 2 give me money as wages)
now the only thing i can do is to wish that gary can have a very succesful carreer and may he get more breaks to rest himself fully before he work himself out...
So GOOD LUCK 2 U GARY.... may ur album sell as good as jays hahaha.....

finish exam + Moon cake festival = busy day

wah.... so long didn't make an entry edi leh....
thanx 2 the mock exam....
but thanx 2 it oso now i am having one week holiday...yeah...!
but after the exam i had not really rested as i had many things and projects 2 work on
it was damn tiring but the result had washed off all the sweat and pain....
at friday where i started 2 build the biggest lantern in the campus...
i panicked as didn't noe what 2 do...
i never builded one and went through many trials n error n finally succeded 2 build the main frame with the help of mom...
it was easy as the main frame was done where i juz need 2 extend the frame and make the shape out with wires...
but there is also some tedious part like pasting the glass paper was quite a hard work as i had 2 do it piece by piece and it was really tiring....
had 2 work on it from morning till evening 4 2 whole days leh....
but all was forgotten when i saw the result and also get compliments from fren.....

at that same evening on saturday...
i was rushing like mad ere and there as i forgot 2bring this and that for that event...
i went home n came back 2 campus with the things i forgot 2 bring i was relived....
but trouble starts again as i wore the sandals instead of the shoe when i was leaving...
die...
i can only wait 4 my mom to bring it 4 me when she fetch my bros to the campus...
that nite i was like nuts as i ran here and there through out the whole event...
and when decorating the whole event it was juz plain stress as everyone was rushing like mad as the event was going 2 start...
also because of this i didn't have the chance 2 look at the drama....T.T(i really looked 4wrd 2 it)

that night was just nice but i think i had done a few mistake as i took the place of the original mc and talk through out the event...
so i here say sorry for taking ur job that night...
but i must admit that i crapped a lot that night and did a ok job 4 m.c.ing
and i performed a dance that night and it was better than i expected as i thought of that i might do more mistake while performing...
juz glad the girls showed up in time also or else i would be in a lot of trouble....
but while performing, my leg started 2 cramp a little edi (think it is because of running the whole day gua)
i still manage 2 perform all with few mistake that i manage 2 escape with...
we were lucky that night as we had fireworks that night on sunway lagoon but 4 what reason i dunno...
but i take advantage and said it was prepared by the society but i was "cheh"ed...T.T(hahaha)
in short it was a busy and tiring but enjoyable and fun as i met my frens and had fun wif them...
oh ya.... 4 those who came please don't be jealous about the lucky drawas my brother won 3 of it hahahaha... actually i done something on the box hahaha... (joking...it was juz pure luck and coincidence)
btw... also had 2 thank wu jun 4 fetching me home that night...(thank you!)
also those who came 1 2 give comments please do as i 1 2 noe wether u all enjoyed the nite or not...
better stop ere or else it will be another really long entry....

plain birthday 2006......

yesterday birthday was juz like nth but a normal they wif extra cake on the day,
no one felt really excited bout it including me,
but the most enjoyable part is to recieve wishing from frens,
so i want to thank you all again who wished me!
"thank you","arigatou","grassiass","terima kasih","xie xie","gam sia",do zheh"...etc
but the funny thing bout my birthday yesterday is that i oni blow the candle around 11.55pm,
where 5 more mins b4 my birthday ends.....

the merdeka eve where i went 4 the ambang merdeka,
wif william they all where that day i was stuck outside wif food
where foods are not allowed to enter but i managed to sneak it in....*evil grin...*
the performance were ok ok oni lor, but the so call "Bangla" dance is damn chun....!
n i enjoyed the song "pernah"
& a song wif a chorus of "over the mountain, deeper than sea"(dunno the name)
last but not least the fireworks...! (it was just plain beautiful)
but the oni dissapointed part is where i didn't meet her or else i edi told her my feelings....
and it would be such a nice timing but it didn't,
so stop dreaming and start working...

at that nite i didn't get what i wanted but i got sth else,
sth i felt disgusted, where a sms saying that a gurl is kidnapped,
what is this girl becoming? its becoming so horrible...
so ppl please be careful when outside, and dun be alone
(sounds like a old man babbling huh?) but i am serious...
please be careful as ppl nowadays do anything....
humanity and morality are fading fast ...
better get going...
mom's ere...

what happened to this world?

juz recived a msg which is really shocking n frightening....
a gurl was kidnapped by 5 guys at parade....
what is happening to this world?
it is getting wilder and wilder for each second it has passed...
now, not only gurls will be the target guys, kids, anyone can be the next victim any sec...
it is horrible as we have to live in fear for our future,
fear that our loved ones were victimised,
fear of us being the next,
fear of losing our life and the one we appreciate the most.

how r we going 2 survive in this dark future?
i hv no idea....
but i really hope all the ppl i noe is always safe and away from danger...
and malaysia can be a safer place... for all of us...
as i like this country

what is love....? a game ? a trade ? a something ? a....?

hey... going to crap at this... so dun read if u dun hv the mood......

juz heard from a fren that his ex which he recently broke up wif was in an accident...
and she was in coma and my fren was thinking that it was his fault,
but luckily that she regain concious,
he blame himself that she got herself in accident,
saying that if he didn't tell her about the fact he didn't like her anymore,
she would be safe,
but what is the point of regreting now?
and whats the point of blamming himself? it won't change anything....

now he is doubting wethere to visit her or not as her fren warned him not to go,
and said that he oni will give her more stress and pain oni....
n said would slap him if he went...
if i were in shoes....
i would also be as doubtful and lost as him not knowing what 2 do next...

but i tried to reconsider that what he has done is rite or wrong....?
he tried not to cheat her and tell her the truth...
not to her hurt even worst...
what happiness she can get from a person who no more loved her?
is there value 4 this relationship 2 go on?
or should they continue on juz 4 the sake of i dunno wat?
i hv so many questions...
maybe this showed that i am not mature enough....

love is a big question mark in my head...
where i am curious how will it be?
who will it be? where? when?
how will it taste? sweet? bitter? sour? spicy?..... ?..?
will i be able to find the rite person? at the rite time?
or will i juz mess up everything as i always do...?
will i hv it onit once or a few times to find the one who suits n unferstands?
will i be a faithfull one or not? how would i turn out 2 be?
or is she really the one?
so many question wif no answers...
and this maybe the things that may pull me back from thinking bout "love"
thinking that the time has not come and not to do get into one...

study comes 1st is planted in my mind
as mom always says what u find now will be temporary and not last long....
is this statment true? i agreed and doubted...but still i obeyed n not to think bout it...
but am i doing the rite thing?
i didn't really cared bout it untill i am like at form 4... (sounds unbelievable...?)
but i dun think i am alone as i noe more frens...
i see there are ppl r in the same situation as me...
and i understands their pain and feeling....
i never tried to express and affraid to do it...
(sounds sacarstic? and hardly imagine that i am like that?)
untill now i had dared not to face her, i think?
kind of irony for a "fearless&cheerful" guy like me to behave like this....

i want to change! i dun want to drag on anymore!
i will oni keep wasting time and no one will benefit from it...
i i i i i i i want to tell u that i like u,
so i really hope u 2 see this......
Sze Nee I really liked you
and hope to be the one guarding u from troubles and pain....
and soon u will hear it from myself,
hopefully tonite if u appear at there....

what a relief....

juz finish the assignment test and the paper was easier than imagined,
reacalling back why i rush myself like nuts 4 nothing yesterday nite,
but it really helped a lot going through it as i now understand better,
(but not totally lar.... =< )
and now better start off wif the next assigment b4 next week test again(haihz....)
or else hv 2 burn midnight oil again(very tiring .....)

also on saturday after wushu helped out at the party...
i was dead tired and the next day i woke up,
whole body aching terriblly and the muscles was dame sore.....
and still have to study(really tired....)
but while studying i recived a msg by william saying that i conned him?

thinking of it,
i sort of conned my frens as i was spreading the news of 2 moons....
but it turned out nothing...
it was dissapointing as i was looking very forward 4 it.....haihz.....
and me myself also got conned too...
hope it really hope that it will happen soon one day in our lifetime....

2 days to go....

2 more days to applics exam and i am still spending my time ere...
plus i just started the assigment.... how should i cope? (no idea -_-)
time managment very bad....

by the way, yesterday street party was soaked wet as it was interrupted by heavy rain...
but the every1 was high that nite....
me too as i played under the rain
i missed that feeling
as i didn't play under it 4 long long time edi and it was juz nice to be under the rain....
juz felt lucky that didn't fall sick today....
plus went there and saw wui li and we joined "bottoms up" competition...
not that "bottom" but a beer drinking competition....
oops root beer not beer....hehehe :p
and i won the competition wif another gurl...
it was a tie... and i was impressed....as i had a hard time to finish the 2 can....
as i gulp the 1st can down it was easy but when i 1 2 go 4 2nd... problem starts...
the gas was like rushing from the stomach to the throat....
and it felt like vomiting bubbles like the shows where the ppl who got poisoned...
(maybe this is the feeling u get if u were poisoned.... who noes?)
but after the competition that gurl seems 2 have a hard time
as she 1 2 let out the gases but she can't...
my stomach didn't feel comfortable neither
as the gas rumbling in the stomach is really not a good feeling....

another thing i tried in the party was some electrical shocking thing
where we should press the button when the light is green 4 not 2 get shocked
but i thought it was to let go when the green light is on and hold the button since starting
and i got shocked twice in a row not knowing whats happpening
untill my hand was quite numb at the end
T.T.... am i really that slow?

but i was impressed by the dance by the 4 gurls as it was juz the bomb...
it was really fantastic and the moves was juz hot hot hot....
i think if took part in the dance competition in Monash few days ago...
confirm 1st place.... really damn yeng 1...

better get going as i hv 2 be the DJ for an event near my home
it is a party organized by mom 4 ger frens...
so hv 2 go back help out by now to help decorate and much more...
today will be a busy day but now i wonder how can i manage my time wisely
as i am running out of time 4 preparing the assigment test...
better settle everything quick and rush 2 study....